i had a dream with you in it

(not that kind of dream...)

it was set in ancient greece

everyone was walking around in togas

we were all philosophers, but also the rabble of commoners

you were giving a symposium on consciousness

there were lots of people talking over each other, random pushing matches

somehow you got some order and were explaining some fine point

i raised my hand and asked some sort of silly question

people started jumping around wanting to interrupt

then you answered the question, and some other philosopher took a turn in the symposium

i looked around for an occult friend but didn't see her

i found some friends and had some wine

we left the symposium and went underground to our lair

(of course we had a lair)

it was like the paris catacombs, tunnels lined with bones

at the bottom was a sacrificial table

a friend said, "what do we do, the army's getting closer?"

there was some sort of vote

somehow (of course) i got helped up onto the table

"you know what to do amber"

there was a ceremony

i sleep and entered the dream within the dream

this part was beyond words but i'll try

it was infinite copies of me

above each version of me was a truer, more authentic one

below each version of me was a faker, more simulated one

the infinity went both ways, up and down

my realization is that things can't matter at one level and not matter a level above or below

things matter on every level or they don't matter on every level

proof by translational invariance

i woke up from the dream-within-a-dream

i tried to tell everyone my insight

i'm too late

the army had come and gone

i looked at my stomach

my toga was red with blood

the truer, more authentic me

the real me standing there

the faker, more simulated me

we were the same

and we were all bleeding out

that was the dream

not the dream i hoped for